Trying to achieve the impossible somehow seems more possible when you take things day by day… in my case it is not such a huge feat for most people, but addiction is different for everyone. Today I stopped drinking Soda because not only is it an addiction but I calculated that at the minimum I am drinking 700 calories of soda a day… that is a lot of empty calories. What I’m wondering is if I will lose weight if I stay away from the soda? If I can kick this addiction I might possibly be able to do anything I put my mind to and maybe even lose some weight. Now if only I could stop snacking on chocolate covered cranberries, oh and I need to start drinking more water.
A few days ago I started using two new facial products and today my skin feels alien to me, not really in a bad way but just new and im not used to it yet. The first product is called ANEW CLINICAL Advanced Dermabrasion System, it felt kinda weird, like lotion with fine granules in it but it made my face feel really soft and new after using it. I also started using ANEW CLINICAL Advanced Retexturizing Peel which was not what I was expecting, I thought it was some kind of gel that acts as a face mask or something but what it is are kinda like those oxy clean facial pads, a little disk-shaped cloth you run across your face… I have no idea if it did anything to my skin but using these products together just seemed like a good idea. Anyways, that is basically all I have added to my skin care regiment, as if I didn’t already do enough already.
This week has been pretty bad on a personal level, not only did I find out that a close family member may not be with us for much longer but my mother in-law is in the hospital again with various issues, so dealing with emotional things is really not my thing, i usually bury grief and push on, but it has been a long time since I have had to face the reality that someone close to me is not going to be around anymore… even if they are a total pain in the butt, there still my family, still going to be missed and no matter how much I try to think of something else, the thought is still there. How do you stay strong for those around you? because this is going to affect some family members more than me and I have no idea how there going to cope. Death is hard but is it harder knowing that it is looming over someone? or is it easier if it happens in the blink of an eye… I have experienced both and to me neither is easy.
On a more upbeat note… I did not die while at the dentist’s today, SUPRISE! I did however suffer temperary peralisis of the bottom half of my face and was deathly scared of chewing off my own tongue accidentally, so I avoided food all day and tried to ignore the fact that i could not feel the drool running down my chin… ya, gross, i know.
Anywho, that’s all i got right now, I’m going to go pass out next to the hubby and think about happy bunnies, and not the happy bunnies you find in the hot topic store!
-Nicko
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